I watch through
translucent eyes,
eyes that find, just in time,
the woes that fill my
heart with tears,
until it spills, still
burning and yearning for
for the years I watched
gracefully race by.

Dear brother of mine,
I cry through nights for you,
Your laughter and love
Still screams in my ears.
I wait for the second when
You return, but without such luck.

My mind is set for seconds of obligation.
I close my eyes and listen for
the repeated sounds that lure me to sleep.

Dull fires burning, and slow tears that burn more.

Another missed memory I watched walk by.
You on my wedding day,
And me at yours.
Missing all the things that happened,
between now and a fire that killed
our entire family while you
were the only one who lived on.

Such luck I have to find such peace of mind,
In nothing at all, while nothing gains,
and nothing is spent.
I spend all of my nothingless days
Crying, because thats all I remember.

Last to see you alive.
Last to see you alive.
The words are burnt, ironically, into a
charished memory that is boxed
and beautifully wrapped,
and never opened, except when I least expect.

Like yesterday, while driving.
The great urge seized me up to drive into a tree.
Tears brimmed my eyelids and all I could see
was your last smile, and
fuck if I ever forget,
I only wished I could kill myself more,
if only to be with you another day.